Fighting


π’«π‘’π‘œπ“…π“π‘’ 𝒢𝓇𝑒 𝒻𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔…one way or another, with, between them or against something else. It’s an endless struggle we call life. Sometimes we are optimistic, looking forward to the near future, looking at what we can do  and on the other hand, we are seeing the pessimistic side, we focus on what we can’t do, on how bad things turn up to be. With these said, it’s hard to find a balance, that same balance which we are anger to achieve. I’m also stuck in finding this balance, in finding the good in the bad, in finding the solution that simply lies ahead.

Sometimes I wish things were easier, people were kinder, but that is not a thing which we can control.  Everyone is choosing 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒾𝓇 π‘œπ“Œπ“ƒ 𝓅𝒢𝓉𝒽, creating their own laws and principles so if those match yours it’s luck I suppose, but if don’t, you need to accept them with no further questions after all each one of us has the right to live as he pleases. 

So why it’s so hard to let the people around us take a different path?

π’ͺ𝓇 π“‰π‘œ 𝓁𝑒𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂 𝒽𝒢𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒾𝓇 π‘œπ“Œπ“ƒ π’Έπ‘œπ“ƒπ’Έπ‘’π“…π“‰π“ˆ 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝒻 π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž π’Ήπ’Ύπ“ˆπ’Άπ‘”π“‡π‘’π‘’ π“Œπ’Ύπ“‰π’½ π“Šπ“ˆ, π“Œπ’Ύπ“‰π’½ π‘œπ“Šπ“‡ π“Œπ’Άπ“Ž π‘œπ’» 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒?

Maybe we are attracted to others, and we think we can take them with us, as we are selfish beings, maybe we need them in our lives to fill the empty place in our emotion that we failed to create. Why are we clinging to them even or especially when they don’t want us?

𝐼𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ π“Œπ‘’ 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀 π“Œπ‘’ 𝒸𝒢𝓃 𝒢𝒸𝒽𝒾𝑒𝓋𝑒 π‘’π“‹π‘’π“‡π“Žπ“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”, π’Έπ“Šπ“β€™ π“Œπ‘’ 𝒢𝓇𝑒 𝒸𝒢𝓅𝒢𝒷𝓁𝑒 π‘œπ“‡ 𝒾𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ π“Œπ‘’ π’Άπ“π“Œπ’Άπ“Žπ“ˆ 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀 π“Œπ‘’ 𝒸𝒢𝓃 𝒸𝒽𝒢𝓃𝑔𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂 π‘œπ“‡ 𝒽𝑒𝓁𝓅 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂?

Until now, I tried not voluntarily or consciously to change and to help others. I’ve always said to myself : people don’t change, unless they want to and that of course needs a tremendous power of will from them, but I don’t know why I tried to stick with them even if I knew the chances were all against. Well I like competition, I like to win and I like to see the smiles upon other’s faces when I’m with them, I like to make them happy, but I don’t know why I insisted so much to help them under the pretexts that maybe they don’t know how to help themselves or they are too shy or they don’t have the power or the support to do it. The answer was always in front of me: if they want, they will do it, but I guess I never wanted to believe the fact that they don’t want to. I’ve always found reasons why they can’t cuz’ I was afraid to find why they don’t want.

π‘€π’Άπ“Žπ’·π‘’ 𝐼’𝓂 π’Ώπ“Šπ“ˆπ“‰ 𝒷𝑒𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓃𝒢ï𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝒢𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝑒𝓅 π’Ήπ‘œπ“Œπ“ƒ π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž 𝒽𝒢𝓋𝑒 π“€π’Ύπ“ƒπ’Ήπ“ƒπ‘’π“ˆπ“ˆ 𝒢𝓃𝒹 π’Ύπ“‰β€™π“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π‘’π“‹π‘’π“‡π“Žπ“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” π’Ώπ“Šπ“ˆπ“‰ 𝒢 π“‡π‘’π’Έπ“€π“π‘’π“ˆπ“ˆ π“ˆπ’½π’Ύπ“… π’Έπ“‡π“Šπ“ˆπ’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” π“‰π‘œ 𝒢𝓃 π’Άπ’Ύπ“ˆπ’·π‘’π“‡π‘”.


„BAD DAY”

π’žπ’Ά π“ˆπ’Ά 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝓇𝒢𝓂 𝒾𝓃 π“ˆπ“‰π’Άπ“‡π‘’ 𝒢𝓂 π“ˆπ’Ά 𝓉𝑒 π“‡π‘œπ‘” π“ˆπ’Ά 𝒹𝒢𝒾 π“…π“π’Άπ“Ž 𝓅𝑒 π’»π“Šπ“ƒπ’Ήπ’Άπ“ 𝓁𝒢 π“‚π‘’π“π‘œπ’Ήπ’Ύπ’Ά π’Άπ“ˆπ“‰π’Ά : 𝐡𝒢𝒹 π’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž-π’Ÿπ’Άπ“ƒπ’Ύπ‘’π“ π’«π‘œπ“Œπ“‰π‘’π“‡


Cred ca tuturor ni s-a intamplat sa avem o zi atat de rea, care sa ne faca sa devenim regizori de film in incercarea de a ii gasi sfarsitul. Stiti intrebarea retorica,  dar cliseica β€ž π’ͺ𝒢𝓇𝑒 𝒸𝒢𝓃𝒹 π“ˆπ‘’ 𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒢 π“π’Ύπ“Šπ’Ά π’Άπ“ˆπ“‰π’Ά?”…sau poate pentru unii a fost saptamana, luna; who knows.

Chiar de curand, am avut o astfel de perioada si am incercat sa o inteleg – mare greseala. E normal sa avem o multitudine de stari, sa obosim chiar uneori sa le avem, sa incercam sa le intelegem, sa dam gres si sa o luam de la capat. In momentul in care te pierzi e bine sa iti aduci aminte de unde a inceput totul, de ce si unde vrei sa ajungi.

Probabil nu vei gasi raspunsul atat de repede, dar iti vei gasi motivatia de a merge mai departe sau asa speram :)). Din pacate, tin sa te anunt ca tu esti singura persoana care te poate scoate din aceasta β€žzi proasta”. Pentru cei din afara ei pare simplu: β€žπ’Ήπ‘’ 𝒸𝑒 𝓉𝑒 π“ˆπ“‰π“‡π‘’π“ˆπ‘’π“π’Ύ π’Άπ“ˆπ’Ά?”, in schimb pentru cei din situatie pare coplesitor: β€žπ’©π“Š π“ˆπ‘’ 𝓂𝒢𝒾 𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒢..”. Daca si tu ai intonat frazele cum trebuie ti se va parea ceva teatral, si ar trebui, pentru ca zilele sunt ca scenele de teatru: pe unele le intelegi, altele sunt doar un hint pentru mai tarziu, unele sunt interminabile, altele parca trec clipind, unele au sens, altele nu si mai sunt si cele pe care nu le intelegi niciodata. Insa toate contureaza cine suntem indiferent ca este vorba de atunci sau acum.

Se spune ca atunci cand zambesti chiar daca nu esti fericit, expresia faciala pacaleste creierul facandu-l sa creada ca este fericit, rezultat= vei avea o stare din ce in ce mai buna, asa ca zambeste, puneti piesa preferata si ia-o din loc – π’žπ“Šπ“β€™ 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝒹, π’Ύπ“‰β€™π“ˆ π’Ώπ“Šπ“ˆπ“‰β€¦π’Ά 𝒷𝒢𝒹 π’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž