Daily journal: 2. THOUGHTS

I woke up like from a nightmare, it was warm but it riped apart the feelings. It was like an avalanche coming inside out. At first I was confused then I realisez how much it bothered me what happened lately. All the thoughts we have at night increase trough sleep and get deeper, that’s why when I woke up I felt exhausted. You know it’s just another daily struggle and we are causing it. I overthink everything, I empathise.. huge advantages in understand the world but huge mistakes for my internal self. Is it bad to want to understand others? Is it bad to want to pull them to you? Maybe, but rationally you can’t go over other’s will.

I started writting another day of my struggle, Why? I dont know, it makes me feel better the thought that someone is listening, maybe they find themselves in this, maybe they overcame it or just maybe I’m being selfish.

Why so many thoughts? Is it better to sealed them?


Daily journal: 1. LOST

I had some thoughts these days. Sometimes I get this feeling like I’m choking, like I’m just sinking deeper, floating at the bottom.. with no rope to hold on, no hand to pick me up. I think it’s not just a feeling, it’s my poor state of mind. Rationally I know that we have to move on, to go forward but all my ties are cut off, I saw them piece by piece breaking apart. How can you move on when you feel this emptiness in you and around you?! How can you be happy again when all the reasons to be seem not enough? Maybe it’s expecting too much? Maybe they were not the right people around?

What makes you move forward? What drives you to be happy? What are you dealing with?